Sunday

Had a good cry last night. Just gotten stretched to the extreme that I just broke down. Hais. I am sorry honey. Didn't mean to take it out on you. I'm sorry. Sunday. I missed service today. Hais. I just got grounded fer today. Sianned.

hmms. Oh wells. Hate to be reminded of my bad memories lorhs. I am sumone whu badly wishes to forget all the shitty-nutty stuffs n hides them all at the back of my head. Hmms. Sumhow, ppl will just unintentionally remind me of them. *cringes in pain* Hmms.. I seriously haf a psychological problem after all that has happened. hais. Insecurity has became a part of me now. And sumtimes, it drives me crazy. Sumtimes, I really wish I wldn't haf that dumb feeling in me. argh. But I can't help much about it. *frustrations* Hate this mans. When will this ever end fer me? =((

I dread the month of May. Year after year, the same stuffs happened. Kinda a routine lers. I'm used to it. *shrugs* Became numbed lers. hmms. Oh wells. Haf decided to get the 200++ bracelet fer mummie. Gona be sososo broke. I wish this year wld be different. I wana be happy, that's all.

busybusyweek

*xin clears the cobwebs n sweep away the dust*

Its been so long since I blogged. Alrights. Though its been oni lyke urms..three days. Haha. Duno why it just feels so long to me. Perhaps, its 'cause too many things are happening bahs. Oh wells. Been feeling veri lethargic recently. Duno why.

Hmms. Ysd Jer came to find me. Wee! Finally lorhs. Haven seen him lyke fer a week n one day till yesterday. You can't imagine how happy I wus lorhs. Ask flor. She saw my expression when I read the msg in which he said he wana cum find me. =D *hapi hapi grin* Haha. I feel so dumb. *shrugs* Am so dumbly in love wif this guy.. =P Watched firewall. Hey. I lyke the movie! haha. though I wus rather slpy thruout. haha. =) i love you dear..

Today's another hapi hapi day! hmms. I had my first pizzahut date with my gorgeous hellmate! *hyperventilates* but before I go into details abt that. I hafta mention the prelude. Haha. Both of us ran out of school lyke two mad women. Two teachers saw us. haha. Kinda dumb. Then we were sweating so unglam-ly. hmms. N we saw the big director at the busstop. N my dear hellmate started to panic. *hmmphs..i m jealous* Haha. She's so cute lahs. =) Alrights. End of prelude. The date wus great =D We practically tok abt everything under the sun. hmms. Crapped wld be a better word. haha. Kept luffing n luffing. People at pizzahut must haf thought that we are mad. We even thought of pulling a prank on the staffs when settling the bill. But too bad, we were in school uniforms. We are good students whu maintain the gd reputation of pjc. Haha. Shared icecream. Hmms. I miss swensens icecream mans!! *argh* Oh yarhs. I forgot that the choc fudge wus at the bottom. N ended up we finished everything then discovered abt the fudge. Geez. And I started fooling wif the fudge. Opps. My hellmate wus so evil lahs. She videoed me down. SEVEN VIDEOS of my dumbness. Omg! I oni got TWO precious ones of her. =D I m the angel, she's the devil. =D She's just sososo cute! haha. Geez. I'm showing signs of lesbianism. Kidding. I'm straight. haha. Oh wells. Its good to see you smiling n enjoying urself =D Dun miss me too much when you're away on ur camp. Though I noe you wld.. just refrain abitbit okays? =D *bhb-ism showing* I LOVE YOU, quackiex =D

hmms. Had quietened dwn quite abit recently. As in, I am less noisy as compared to the usual me. Think von's worried fer me. I'm quite fine lahs. Silence fer others may mean that they're sad or sth. But fer me, I'm thinking. Or rather, I chose to retreat back into my own world. Veri weird, isn't it? I'm not unhappy, yet I'm doing this. Rather contradictory. *shrugs* Oh wells, I tend to be unrealistic at times. Thinking that all will turn out as to what I haf expected and when things doesn't, I'll be utterly upset and stuffs. Immature thinking, you might think. But thats just me. Duno why. I dun lyke the world that we live in. Too much complications. I lyke simplicity. I rather be simple-minded n be ignorant abt all that is happening ard me. There is just too much complications everywhere. And it makes ppl confused n lost. I do too, 'cause I dun understand why things hafta turn out in a certain way n can't accept it as it is. hmms. why can't relationships last forever? why can't ppl stay in love forever? why can't breakups cease to exist? why can't everything just turn out to haf a happy ending? why must things be so unpredictable? why must things change? why must ppl change? why can't one stay happy forever? *argh* alrights. I shall calm dwn. hais. Its partly because of all these that we feel so insecure abt our own future. We're living in a world where everything is unpredictable. Where hypocrites, backstabbers, jerks n bastards exist. Hah. Scary world. =( argh. I dun even noe what the hell am I toking abt anemore. I shldn't be feeling this way abt things. By right, I shld be lyking these situations, 'cause I'm a risktaker. Perhaps, its 'cause I've gotten too sick n tired of these complicated challenges in life.. too tired to get hurt.. too tired to endure ane heartbreaks.. too tired to deal wif things bahs.. Perhaps, thats why I wana stay in my own world.. where everything is simple n happy=)

`I have this dream..wishing that I can be always happy with the one whu truly loves me..

back frm night jaunt

Hmms. Am back frm night jaunt. Hmms. Kinda tiring but I had fun! Serious. Though the night jaunt wusn't really a gd success. Oh wells. But one good thing is, everyone had their fair share of fun. Night jaunt ended wif everyone feeling tired but happy. hmms. Night safari wus fun as usual. haha. Took quite a number of pics. hmms. Kelvin's super cute. Hah. Orights. I know this shldn't be cuming frm me. But haha, can't help it. He's a super nice guy to chat wif. Super gentlemanly too. Omg. Haha. Shucks. My weakness got discovered by fen during the night safari. =S hmms. Had Ben&Jerry's too. Yummielicious. haha. Kelvin got a bigger scoop than all of us. Hmmphs. So unfair. hmms. Supper at East Coast Lagoon is great! haha. Wus so darn full lahs. hmms. Too bad we din had time to go check out the Carpark C fer free shows. Tsk! hmms. Changi Village wus erms.. ok lahs.. Kinda got affected by kelvin. Hmms. He felt upset fer them. Went Red House.. but it started pouring then we had to retreat to Geylang. The driver wus super pissed off. And so, I bought soya beancurd fer the driver. Hmms. Went back to Red hse N Old Changi Hospital. Not really freaky lahs. Last stop wus @ the cemetery before we set off back to school. Den it wus home sweet home fer me.

Alrights. I just woke up not long ago. hmms. Still feeling lethargic. Hmms. I know I just pissed off my bf wif my attitude. Hais. Can't help it. I am really feeling veri cranky 'cause I am not able to see him till until.. maeb nxt sat? hais. I'm a hopeless attention seeker. Hais. *shrugs* I'm sorry dear. I din mean to do it. Forgive me?

The day before night jaunt

Am feeling much much beta now. Thanks nessa fer listening to my bullshit. haha. Thanks to my ever so sweet n great boyfren too. Thanks fer taking time out to call me. Hmms. Oh wells. I'm so much better now. Hmms. But I think I am falling sick lers. Having a bad headache. Must be due to getting drenched frm the rain. Heex. I dun lyke bringing umbrella out with me de. yi ge ren cheng san shi hen ji mo de...

Todae's ok day. PE wus TOUGH!! Had five rounds of obstacles course. Sum ppl just look so ridiculous doing them. Haha. I mite be one of them *shrugs* =P hmms. hmms. Rushed to lotone after sch wif flor to avoid being stuck in sch if it rains. Slacked at MAC. hmms. Told flor sum stories. Haha. So funny. hmms. Den pei flor take bus to boonlay fer her bible studies.. N I took the train back to cck. During my journey to boonlay n back to cck, I wus typing a story on my hp. Haha. In cheena. Thats why it took me so long. Just gt the urge to type a nice story. Hmms. Sent to david's hp fer leen n forwarded it to flor too. I just love the story. Just nw read the story to dear. but dun tink he lykes it lahs. I think it must haf sounded real dumb to him lorhs. hais. oh wells. =)

Night Jaunt's tml lers. Omg! so scary. Fer a perfectionist lyke me, I wished that all turns out fine n everyone wld haf lotsa fun. Hais.. too bad my dear wun be ther wif me.. no matter how much I wish.. =(((

xin is useless

I purposely created a password fer my blog fer ppl whu are really close to read my entries. hmms. Am feeling sad nw. 'Cause of what happen to my gd fren. argh. Hmms. Dun wry abt it, girl. Its oni natural that I feel this way. =)

Sumhow, looking at things now, brings back alot of stuffs. All that I haf been thru. The heartaches, the non-stop crying. As well as the tots that went thru my mind during that dark period. Girl, you aren't alone. It's only natural to think of such tots. To feel lost, confused n even the tots of dying. But think abt it. Are those tots worthed put into action? Think abt the consequences. Think abt how ur frens n family wld feel. You've gotta be strong fer them. Just rmb that you'll always have ppl, frens, family members whu really care. If there's anething, just find sumone to tok to. Don't ever worry about troubling ppl. Its not good to keep things bottled up. I used to do it. And I regretted it. 'Cause I nearly died of depression. Rmb that there'll always be us standing by you. Thats what makes u so different frm me. Don't ever think of doing anything stupid. Its not going to make things better. It might just worsen things. My dear girl, rmb that we love you =) God makes things happen fer a reason. Haf faith, dear=)

Hmms. If I were to say, I ain't affected by this all. I wld be lying. Haha. *shrugs* I feel sumthing special between me n my dear girl. Sth reali special. Sth that oni besties share. A ever so special bond. hmms. Of course, I wld feel insecurity right now. But I know, thats not going to help things. I shld haf faith n trust, even if I don't haf in myself, I shld be trusting my other half. Hmms. Sumhow, I feel that, if the same things were to happen to me all over again, I wldn't know what to do. All I know is that, I wld be very lost. And so, I pray hard that, I wun hafta go thru all those again. I hope. =X

I feel so soso guilty. Fer not being able to help though I haf the same experience. Or rather, worse. Just follow ur heart, my dear. Dun lose ur faith due to circumstances. You're a rational girl, frm what I haf always known you to be. Promise me, that you'll gona be all well n happy soon kays? =) I'll pray fer you=)

`I can never imagine life w/o you. I'm feeling scared n insecured right now.

blueyblueymondae

Think I'm having the monday blues as usual=( Kinda feeling rather melancholy quite recently. Duno why. *shrugs* Perhaps, it's just me thinking too much bahs. hais. oh wells. Now fer updates.

Went church service wif flor ysd. The drama wus nice. Haha. Heard frm cheuk that she got freaked out by the actor's shouting in front of her. haha. So funny. Hmms. Den hung ard expo to look at sum exhibits, n not forgetting the johnlittle sale. Haha. Sumhw stil duno understand what's so fascinating abt that sale. Lols. Din see anething that I lyke. haha. Den dragged flor go bugis wif me to shop. Couldn't find the stuffs that I wanted so badly. Shucks. ='(

Todae's a boring boring monday. I'm especially cranky todae. Practically slpt thru most of my lessons. Geez. Feel lyke a piggie now. haha. PE's extremely exhausting todae. haha. todae's nt a gd day=(

sum things are really not meant to be spoken abt. hais. else it might just worsen things. And so, it just did. Hate this type of stuffs. Made me so emotionally-drained. I m veri veri veri tired. But yet, nth cld be done abt it. I just feel so out of this world. Lyke my quackies, sumtimes, I just find life so utterly boring n sucky. lols. Can't help it. I shld b more optimistic. Haha. Tml's gona be a better day! *prays hard*

`when I dun question/say a thing, it doesn't mean I don't care; it just means that I care too much to nt interfere . . .

my boyfren is the sweetest!!

Just reached back hm nt long ago. Rainy weather again. hmms. Todae gt geog tutorial. Went ther to slack 'cause I did NONE of my hwk. haha. oh wells. Left sch wif my darl quack n flor. Hais. My quack's upset. Uhoh. Feeling rather guilty right nw. Sheesh. Shld haf kept my mouth shut. hmms.

Finally convinced flor to go kboxing wif me. I seriously nidda de-stress!! Haf been really cranky recently. Kbox wus fun wif flor. haha. We practically got very hyped up; I think I've gone mad lahs. Food wus okay. Got my fav mini octopus!! haha. heex. alrights. I duno why am I so hyped up todae even though I lacked slp. Heex.

hmms. Jer came at ard twelve to pei wo. He came ova as soon as he woke up. Hmms. so touched lahs. thanks dear. hmms. Went to watch art of seduction at cwp. Lame show lahs. haha. But comical enuff to make me luff. Hmms. after movie, can't think of anething to do lorhs. Hmms. Jer just drove ard then we stopped at sumwher wher we cld see the causeway. Got out of the car to enjoy the breeze awhile before it pours. haha. Sat in the car, listening to music. haha. Den reluctantly, home sweet home. I noe its veri early lahs. But no choice, my bf dun wana kip me company mahs. haha. kidding.

`sumtimes, I am curious to know how important I am in your life . . .

Root Canaling LAST day !!

Just came back frm the dentist not long ago. My dentist's super nice to me todae fer sum unknown reasons. Perhaps, he's happy to be getting rid of me. Haha. Had my last treatment todae. Cool.. haha. Din expect it to be so fast! haha. Last time I had FIVE major treatments before I recovered. The advancement in science n tech rawks mans! =D *big big grin* oh yarhs. When I wus in the dental rm, wus watching the tv n I saw SAS. -__-" he's holding the crown thingy fer the crowning of ms sg universe lahs. He looks so weird in his TIGHT tux. omg. Guess flor *fLo* will be hyperventilating while watching the encore. =Pp

School's okay todae. Just feeling veri drowsy lorhs. I lacked slp. Thanks to my beloved bf. hmms. But I dun blame him lahs. I miss him the same way too. =) hmms. PE's tiring as usual. haha. Todae alot of ppl absent sia. Nv jio me along. Sobs. Oh yarhs. Got our Projwrk results liaos. Everyone gt an A2 except sum. Msged kingkong to tell him. haha. Cheered him up in the midst of his illness. haha. I am a kind soul! =D

alrights. tml's a public hol! wee. Can haf a gd gd rest. hmms. alrights. Am going to slp soon liaos. hmms. my quack isn't veri cheery todae. =( Duno what happen to my quack. * gives quack a hug* hope you'll be smiling again soon =) love ya quack =)

Tiring Wednesday

It's a tiring tiring day. Reached home not long ago. Haha. Am really drained of all my energy lorhs. Hmms. Lessons were boring as usual. Had GP essay practice today. Argh. I realised I can't do a proper essay plan! haha. Just not used to doing it. *shrugs* And during the two hrs break, I wus dying of BOREDOM. Tried to msg Jer but he's busy with his stuffs. hais. Maths wus worse. I am a bad influence, I must admit. I'm always distracting ppl frm studying. oops!

Went fer hclub miting. Todae conducting interviews fer the jc1s. Kinda one-man show. Interviewing ppl IS tiring! All the questionings nearly killed me. Esp the one wif Jingyi. OMG! I had to try very hard to keep a straight face. It's weird interviewing ur fren lahs. Am rather satisfied with their responses. Gene n evan came to crash 'cause I said ther were sum pretty girls. haha. typical guys. *shakes head* hmms. Right now, having lotsa probs wif night jaunt. Spidey wana go, jingyi n gang wana go, SO MANY PPL WANA GO but I can't do much to help!! argh.

After meeting, went off wif von, fen, gene n evan. Tok crap again. I dropped my wallet on the bus again. Duno why recently I haf becum so careless. haha. Jialat. hmms. Had lunch wif fen before goin window shopping. Lunch wus great. haha. Wus toking abt fen abt my great other half. haha. Found a gorgeous dress. Simple design but sleek. =D

Tml's the last sch day of the week!! *though am having geog tutorial on sat* WEE!! haha. Gona go off to TRY studying fer maths test.

`missing eu far too much=(

Monday blues =/

Think I'm having the Monday blues. Have been feeling cranky fer the whole day. My gastrics's killing me! argh. Hate it. Now I can't even go on a proper diet. Sianned. Maybe, I shldn't skip my meals so often. Blehs. *shrugs*

Had a nice girls' talk wif susu, flor, leen, n my quackiex. Though kinda crappy n the contents kinda.. urms.. weird? okays. But I'm open to such stuffs. So I'm okay wif it. *winkx* hmms. Den leen mentioned my blog. haha. I love that quote too!! "love is not about the moments you shared wif your other half, but about the number of moments that take your breath away." nice rites? haha. Think abt it. How many such moments actually exist in your relationship? hmms. =)

Leen also mentioned abt the quote that always appeared at the left-hand bottom of my blog. "time heals all wounds but breeds new ones." hmms. I din think of this myself. It came with this blogskin n I chose to keep it 'cause I find it rather true. hmms. alrights. it all depends bahs. hmms. true la. time can ease the hurt n pain you once faced or been thru though the scars remain deep dwn. hmms. as fer the second part of that quote. hmms. sumtimes, a guy cums along. Feelings developed, sparks fly all over the place. Sumhow, you just feel that he's the right one. But if he's not, ther goes the vicious cycle again, breeding new wounds. hmms. but then again, I'm no pessimist lahs. hmms. just saying what I feel bahs. *shrugs*

Sumhow, I dun feel lyke going fer night jaunt anemore. Its gona b all weird since he's going. Alrights. I dun reali hate so much anemore. Hating is tiring. But, sumthing just hold me back frm forgiving such a person. My principles? Or merely my stubbornness? I dun deny, I am a selfish lover. sumone whu wldn't wana share my other half. N nids lotsa attention n love. haha. hmms. Hopefully, I can enjoy night jaunt. Its gona be my last hclub activity lers. =S

Gona go rest lers. Pretty worn out after PE lers. tata~

`hoping that you are the right one fer me *Je t' aime*

xin ain't happy.

Dun ask me why I ain't happy. Its just the emotion in me right now. Could be 'cause of all the sad songs that I haf been blasting in my ears. Could be 'cause what happened last night when I reached hm. Could be 'cause of all the stress that I am facing and giving myself bahs.

hmms. ysd after my date wif Jer. Came home oni to find dad on the phone wif mdm khoo, my civic tutor. Hmms. alrights. dad wusnt exactly happy with what he heard lahs. hais. All I get is blames after blames. yayaya.. its all my fault. Not not putting enuff efforts. Even the fact that I wus veri sick during my CT period wusn''t a good enuff excuse. Its not as though I am proud of my results lidat. argh. I am darn disappointed too kays?! Just that I dun show it much tts all. Feeling so tired n stressed out. Parents quarrelling behind my back. argh. Can't I just have sum peace? * xin needs a shoulder to lean n cry on*

hmms. my unhappiness has nth to do wif my dear. hmms. on the hand, I think I haf always been making him unhappy n stuffs. hais. Sorry jer. hmms. I am such a lousy gf lahs. Its lyke I can't even go msia to meet you n you are always making the trips to sg to keep me company. I feel so guilty. Sorry dear.

Just saw this on the PRF's blog. Posted by my hellmate. I'm just copying over those related to me de. haha.

Personality test by name : Doesyour name begin with:

J?You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. ( you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game. You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

truetruetrue. haha. yarhs. 100% true of me. blehs.

By month : MAY*Stubborn and hard-hearted *Strong-willed and highly motivated *Sharp thoughts *Easily angered *Attracts others and loves attention *Deep feelings *Beautiful physically and mentally *Firm standpoint *Easily influenced *Needs no motivation *Easily consoled *Systematic (left brain) *Loves to dream *Strong clairvoyance *Understanding *Sickness usually in the ear and neck *Good imagination *Good debating skills *Good physical *Weak breathing *Loves literature and the arts *Loves traveling *Dislike being at home *Restless *Hardworking *High spirited *Spendthrift

Quite true bahs. haha. =Pp

By birthdate: May 15th - May 24thGold

GOLD ~ You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

Yupsyups. TRUE. haha. I just love personality tests that analysize me so accurately. haha. =D

alrights. Gotta go study lers. Gonna mug hard fer midyear exams. =)

Random post

Random post. Its Friday once again. Today wusn't a bad day. Except that Mdm Khoo, my civic tutor, actually talked to me. Talked abt my sucky results. She said she's going to call my daddy n talk to him abt it. Argh. I am so dead. Hopefully daddy wun make a big fuss out of it. Anewae, she's sending me for econs remedial. OMG! Thats goin to suck mans. Its lyke sending me to the nunnery lidat lahs. =X its just a metaphor. haha. Imagine jiaxin goin fer econs remedial. Thats goin to be sum joke of the yr lahs! >.< color="#cc66cc">Seven mths to my freedom! =D

Hmms. Today nearly went to sch late again. Fen told me sum stuffs that got me rather pissed off. hmms. I wusnt pissed off by her. But the contents of what she said. Hmms. Sorry fen. I can't help it lahs. I'll try to be nice =) hmms. My mood wus spoilt fer the whole day. Talked to my hellmate abt stuffs frm the past. Bad memories. hmms. Its alrdy too late fer repentance. What's the use since the harm n hurt haf been done? Sorry fen. I just can't bring myself to forgive sumone lidat completely. Sorry.

Oh yarhs! today flor took my hellmate's photo while she wus snoozing during assembly. She's so gorgeous even when she's dozing off to slp. Sheesh..I am so in love wif my hellmate=D Peiling is such a great hellmate. *xin showing signs of turning les..uhoh* she's gorgeous, funny, lame, hot n sexy. N also, she's so nice to me!! We had a romantic walk in the rain ysd. She even held the umbrella fer me. So sweet right?!! =D I'm leaving my hp's wallpaper as it is. Its so nice lahs. I LOVE MY QUACK=D

hmms. Had a gd chat wif my gd fren just nw. Were talking abt our future stuffs. He said my thinking has changed lers. Haha. Haf I? hmms. Perhaps bahs. I used to be veri simple-minded. Blehs. hmms. I din change much lahs. Just dun really expect much frm my future now. After so much things, just realised that everything is so unpredictable. Not trying to be pessimistic here. hmms. oh wells. All I asked fer is a simple n peaceful life. haha. And so wher do I go after jc? hmms. hopefully, I can get into an uni. SMU seems so out of reach. Alas fer me. I'm always having such high expectations of myself. And after uni? hmms. find wrk bahs. Haha. I used to think of getting married right after studies 'cause I'm veri sick of life as a student. And wana stay hm n enjoy life. bLehs. crazy old me. oh wells. no office wrk fer me. That will bore me to death. haha. I need excitement in my life =D haha. And after that? hmms. Decide to wrk till sumone's willing to take up the burden of taking care of me. haha. Or till I haf earn enuff to stay hm n enjoy my life. *shrugs* Haha. As compared to mine, my fren's future plan is so much detailed, so much full of ambition. Haha. Oh wells. To me, simplicity is beauty.

Gona go mugging soon. Hehehs. I will get my As n Bs fer mid yrs! * xin gives nerdy look* Haha.

`i really really miss you so.

Root canaling Day 1

Finally been to the dentist to start on my treatment. Hmms. Wus freaking out even before I wus in the room. Sumhow, my fear of pain is growing lahs. Hmms. Shan't gross you ppl out with the details. Am expected to experience pain tonight. argh. Sucky. =(

Sch's fine todae. hmms. I survived thru maths tutorial. haha. My whole grp practically just slacked. We were guessing each other's pri n sec schs. haha. Reali bo liao. =Pp. Oh yarhs. PE wus torturous. I forgot tt my gastrics ain't that well recently, n had overdose of chilli. argh. And ended up having serious cramps after 800m warmup jog. Me n flor purposely overtook 'ermhmm'. Haha. She seemed to haf a hard time catching up cause we were quite fast. Haha. This will teach her to underestimate us. =Pp

Oh wells. Also kept myself busy wif this nice personality test book that my hellmate brought fer me. hmms. Quite accurate. Esp fer me. I am unique. Haha. As in being half taurus n Gemini. =D

Taurus ~Those born under the sign of Taurus are represented by the bull, an animal known for its resolute stubbornness. *heex.. I dun deny this* It’s your defining characteristic, in both positive and negative ways. At your best, you’re determined, persistent and enduring; you’re a reliable and trusted ally. You like your way of doing things – you’ve been doing it that way for years and wouldn’t think of doing otherwise. You’ve set a steady routine in life; people could set a clock by you and your habits. But your stubbornness also means you’re highly resistant to change. You tend to be inflexible in your habits and your beliefs, which others might find offputting.

Strengths~Placid, down-to-earth, patient, stable, stalwart, sensible and charming

Weakness~Obstinate, stingy, overbearing, plodding, self-indulgent, possessive, materialistic and conservative

Your love life~Afraid of being hurt, you don’t enter into relationships lightly, but because of your strong desire for emotional security when you do commit, you commit for life. *veri true norhs* As a result, you tend to hang on too long after a relationship has run its course. The biggest threat to your romantic happiness is your jealousy and possessiveness *used to be lidat..but now..duno lehs.. I haf learn to let go ler bahs; whatever will be, will be*, which partners may find it stifling. Learn to let go a little and allow your mate some independence which you could learn to enjoy too. A breath or two of fresh air can only revitalize your relationship. You also tend to seek out relationships that can offer you security, but there needs to be passion in the mix as well.*bingo!!* You’re a sensual person; you deserve a lover who can ignite the smoldering flames within you.

Gemini~Like their namesake Twins, Geminis aren’t easily pigeonholed. In fact, you resist being labeled at all costs. You’re innately curious, and you love exploring and trying new things – often more than one at a time. A gifted, lively dilettante, you’re always eager to learn a new skill, take on a new challenge, try a new restaurant. You’re on a lifelong quest for constant simulation, and you get bored easily. *xin nods violently*

Strengths~Witty, versatile, entertaining, progressive, quick-witted, vivacious, inquisitive

Weakness~Scattered, fickle, unpredictable

Your love life~Because even you need a relationship that has some common ground, you should find an intellectually stimulating partner who shares some but not all of your interests and opinions. You need some discussion and arguments to keep the passion alive; otherwise you;ll be tempted to look outside of the relationship time and again. You’re an incurable flirt, and your partner will need to be understanding and forgiving of your wandering eye. But in turn, you must learn to be more constant and warmer, and to show your partner exactly how you’re feeling. And stop flirting with every attractive stranger that catches your eye. *hey hellmate.. I m no incurable flirt lorhs. I dun flirt liaos. Haha. at least nt on purpose=Pp*

Hmms. before I end off this long n crappy post. Hmms. Must thank my beloved hellmate QUEK PEILING fer walking n sheltering me frm the rain out of sch today. *hugs* Thank yew GORGEOUS! =D

`i miss you badly, do you know that?

new blogskin !!

wee! new blogskin. Nice right? but I haf got probs wif the template which explains why ther is the error thing appearing when u access my blog. So sorry ppl. BABA!! help me pls?!!

Oh wells. Ain't in the best of moods today. Am feeling rather down. Perhaps, 'cause of the bad chairing of the hclub meeting bahs. I do not make a gd pres. I sux at chairing meetings. Haish. *shrugs* Plus, today wus pretty tiring fer me. Duno why. Perhaps its just fatigue bahs.

Just gotten off the phone wif nessa. Hmms. Listened to her 'complaints'. Aiya. Not really complaints lahs. Just listened to her probs lorhs. Hmms. Girl, I only got one thing to say to you. Just be yourself. In fact, all these probs are pretty minor. Just think positive. You know, sumtimes, I just wished I cld be you. So carefree. I miss that feeling.

hmms. Think I pissed Jer off over the phone today. hais. Din mean to do it on purpose. Sorry dear. Am really too tired. Hope you'll at least try to understand alittle? hmms. I am really sorry. Sincerely apologetic fer my tone. Sorry.

Haven been really happy recently. Dun understand why exactly so myself. hmms. Just gt this emptiness in me whenever I am all alone. Hmms. todae did a personality test. "what is ur personality color?" I am "green". And the analysis fer my color matches completely wif my personality. Amazing isnt it? hmms. Fear of being alone. Yarhs. Thats so ME! hmms. N Green ppl tends to think alot. Are emotional. Risktakers. Greens are the ppl whu will take the blame on themselves even if the other party is at fault. *peiling n I agreed on this strongly* N yada yada. hmms. duno why I haf that stupid fear oso. Frens tell me that I ain't considered alone when I am attached. hmms. true to a certain extent. But being attached doesn't mean that I can be ard my guy 24/7 right? He needs his own space too mahs. N sumtimes, I've got this feeling that he's much happier when he's with his frens rather than being with me. So why bother? *shrugs* Perhaps, its the thoughts that cross my mind when I m all alone. dumb tots. I tend to think too much. thats what ppl sae. But is that really true? I duno it myself. hais. I m weird. haha.

Hais. Am feeling really cranky right now. I need a hug badly right now. =(

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Hmms. Haven been updating fer quite sumtime lers. Been pretty busy with the lifeless jc schlife. Seriously lahs. jc life excluding my great galfrens, the other aspects are just so sucky. argh. =( hmms. all you do is MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG n MUG NON-STOP! what kind of life is that? I hate routines. -__-

Nth much is happening in my life bahs. hmms. urms.. must thank my dear fer spending yesterday with me. It wus our 100th day together! wee. haha. alrights. paiseh. din really haf anething planned. But yarhs, I love you most! =D

This sat is 'meet the parents cum higher ed day'. Boring to the max lahs. Hmms. its lyke taking up my whole daytime lorhs. What a waste of precious time! haha. I din intend to spend it on quality studying lahs, you all shld noe. =Pp

Oh wells. geog field trip is cancelled lers. but the bad news is I will be having a lot of geog tutorials. argh. hais. hmms. oh wells. gotten the timetable fer a lvls papers liaos. I oni hafta go fer six days n my last paper is on 16th Nov. WEE!! lala~ so hapi.. haha.. I can't wait! haha. oh wells. I m goin bonkers lers after all the stress. Going off to rest lers. haven been slping much lately=(

`sum things are meant to be left unspoken.

april's fool day

Before I start on my random rambling of my boring life, I wld to wish all..

"Hapi April's Fool Day !!"

Alrights. I serious dun lyke the idea of being treated lyke a fool lahs. haha. not tt I ain't sporting enuff to accept jokes. But the idea of being treated tt way just puts me off. Duno why oso. *shrugs* ONI ONE PERSON ATTEMPTED TO TRICK ME AND SUCCEEDED TODAE. argh. alrights. but since I am a nice person. I shall forgive that special sumone =D

Let me blog abt ysd first bahs. Got darwin mass buffet last night. Not really a success. But we did haf fun, din we? haha. The food wus alright, just that there were too little varieties. okok. I shldnt haf such high expectation fer sth I oni paid five bucks fer. There were alot of ppl whu came fer free lahs. tsktsktsk. =P hmms. Mass dance n fun dance were fun!! 'Cause of my beloved hellmate, PEILING!! she is so gorgeous, sexy n hot=D haha. oops. alittle too much details=P haha. BUT! Its all facts=D Another funny thing at the mass buffet, Spidey tried to trick us wif his card tricks. haha. But they dun wrk on me. I think I am a curse in his life. Blehs. aww.. so sad..=Pp After buffet, waited fer leen. Den me, flor, peipei, leen, baba n cassie went Mac to haf desserts. Haha. We were noise pollutants ther lahs. Had lotsa fun ther. Haha. =D

Now fer todae. Went clementi meet leen fer Kbox. So fun lahs!! haha. long time nv K liaos. Miss the feeling of singing ther mans. haha. Took sum nicenice pics ther. haha. Had so much fun wif leen todae. must go again soon!! haha.

Den went back Wdls to meet Jer. hmms. Miss him so much lahs. hmms. Watch ultraviolet. FINALLY lahs. haha. hmms. nth much to do at cwp den Jer met up wid his fren. Had to cum hm early eventually cuz Jer's daddy wans him hm. Sobs. =( Wei.. I hope u really din open up the envelope lahs. Else..else.. I really really wun tok to you ever again de lorhs.. >.<

" Love is not abt the moments that you share wif your other half, but about the no. of moments that take your breath away."